Oh! God where would I go and what would I do without your love in my life? Where shall I place my weary head? Oh! How tear stained is my bed? Oh! how my heart has been broken into tiny pieces. All because I have forsaken you and lost my first love. I knew when I first became saved at the tender age of nine years old. At the age of eleven and one-half, I made you a pledge. When my very life was hanging in the balance. "Oh dear God if you spare my life! I will serve you the rest of my life!" The age of thirteen was the age I call my second religious experience. No I did not become saved, what happened was a rededication of my life to Jesus Christ. Salvation only happened in my life when I first became saved.

Many times I have forsaken and even renounced my Christian faith. The more I blamed God for my problems of myself and my family. The worse they got! I started turning my eyes upon Jesus Christ and was baptised a Baptist at first Baptist Church. Later on I joined the Lutheran Church. My sister Lynn wanted to be rebaptised several times. The Lutheran pastors understood, and I became rebaptised again because of her. I look up those experiences as rededication of my earthly life to my beloved Lord and Savior. Jesus Christ. "Every knee shall bow and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord." "His banner over me is love." That banner just happens to be God.

I wanted to be accepted by the world in order to have friends. Worldly people did not believe I was a Christian. Because I was exactly the same as them. Later I thought church going Christians were hypocrites. The difference is Christians can be redeemed hypocrites. Christ can deliver them from the base human nature sin of hypocritical. We are redeemed by the blood of the Lamb, and our sins have been cleansed and are as white as snow. I am a child of the most high God! He is the caption of my ship and the master of my destiny.

Love in Christ Jesus!

Roxanne Lea Dubarry

Roxy Lea 1954

Roxy 1954/ October Country

March 16, 2020