Desperately, I reach out to you,
Begging and pleading,
"Don't let this be the end!"
Blood runs down my legs,
From the scrapes on my knees.
I feel as though I've been
Chasing you for years,
But every step I take towards you
Is another mile you pull away.
So, desperately I try to reach you,
To keep you here with me
For you are the only person
On this Earth
Who makes me feel like I belong.
Like I belong with you;
Like I belong in this body;
Like I belong alive.
But just like that,
In an instance,
You make me feel like I'm nothing.
Like I don't belong;
Like I don't deserve to waste this space;
Like I don't deserve to breath in this precious oxygen.
But still...I still reach for you,
Begging for you to save me
Because you are the only one who can.
You...you are a double-sided blade.
One side builds,
The other destroys.
You hold the power to choose.
Will you build me up?
Or will you rip me apart?
And still, knowing this...
I still reach for you so desperately,
Hoping that you'll choose to build me;
To help me become who I need to become,
To save me from being swallowed up
By the cruelty and injustice of this world.
So I'll reach for you as I lose my grip,
Will you catch me? Or let me fall?