A KISS TO BE
By Marie MIDKIRK
IT WAS MARCH OF 1997 MY FRIEND Angie ALWAYS TRIED TO MATCH-MATE ME WITH GUYS. IT DIDN'T MATTER WHEN, WHO, WHY, I GUESS THAT WAS HER FATE SHE FIGURED, JUST BECAUSE she always thought that one out of a million choices might one day WORK, But almost always her set-ups didnt work. I WAS SCARED OF GUYS.NOT BECAUSE OF THINGS THAT CAN HAPPEN PHSICALLY BUT EMOTIONALY. I ALWAYS KEPT MY DISTANCE EMOTIONALLY. I HUNG OUT WITH GUYS AND WERE THEIR FREINDS WHICH WAS FINE. ROMANTICLY, THAT SCARED I TO DEATH.THE GUYS AND I WOULD GO HANG OUT AND HAVE FUN. But as far as having TO THINK ABOUT LOVE, KISSING AND ALL THATDIFFERENT STUFF MADE MY STOMACH FLIP. So I just like to be JUST friends.
ANGIE KEPT BUGGING ME TO COME TO DINNER AT HER HOUSE TO MEET THIS GUY, NO BIG DEAL. This guy she wanted me to meet, (she thought that this one was the one that would be my Night and Shining Armor, Prince Charming that would sweep me off my feet).
Right! that is what her and every match maker always tells you when they want to set you up with a guy.I ALWAYS SAID NO.THEN ONE DAY IT HAPPENED. THIS GUY CAME INTO OUR WORK TO USE THE PHONE. I WENT UP TO ANGIE AND TOLD" HER SEE THAT GUY, I COULD SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH HIM". ANGIE LAUGHED, I SAID "WHAT ARE YOU LAUGHING ABOUT "SHE SAID", THAT IS MIKEY AND THAT IS WHO I HAVE BEEN WANTING YOU TO MEET FOR DINNER AT MY HOUSE FOR THE LAST 3 MONTHS.A CHILL WENT DOWN MY SPINE. I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO SCARED IN ALL MY LIFE. HOW COULD I THE ONE THAT HAS A WALL UP TOWARDS GUYS, BE HAVING THESE FEELINGS ABOUT SOMEONE I NEVER MET. AS THE MONTH PROGRESSED MIKEY CAME INTO OUR
WORK. HE KEPT ASKING ME OUT.I KEPT MAKING UP EXCUSES. I THOUGHT IF I COULD HAVE FEELINGS FOR A STRANGER, I WOULD BE IN REAL TROUBLE IF I WENT OUT WITH HIM.I MADE MY DECISION,"NO WAY". HE HAD SURGERY ON HIS THUMB. HE SMASHED IT AT WORK AND THEY HAD TO FUSE IT. ANGIE was going TO PICK HIM UP AT THE HOSPITAL WHEN HE WAS DONE. HE CALLED HER TO AT OUR WORK TO let her know KNOW HE WAS READY TO BE PICKED UP. THEN HE asked to speak with me ON THE PHONE. ANETHESIA, THE TRUTH SERUM, We talked and before he was going to hang up he said I Love You AND I OF ALL PEOPLE ME MARIE RESPONDED WITH I LOVE YOU TOO BEFORE WE HUNG UP. MIKEY STILL SCARED ME BUT STILL KEPT ASKING ME OUT. I kept saying NO.So he told me I will make you a deal If you let me kiss you once and if you dont have any feelings I will quit bugging you. I told him he had to take me to the movies that I just dont kiss guys for no reason especially if I dont know them.
WELL IT WAS JULY 11, 1997 AT ABOUT 6:00 PM. WE WERE GOING TO THE MOVIES .I MET HIM AT ANGIES HOUSE.HE CAME OUT FRONT OF HER DUPLEX ON THE GRASS.WE SAT DOWN AND TALKED WHO KNEW ABOUT WHAT? I HAD BUTTERFLYS IN MY STOMACH AND ALL I COULD PICTURE WAS HIS MASCULINE BUILD
AND HIS DARK HAIR AND HIS BROWN EYES (HE HYMOTISED ME INTO ANOTHER DIMENSION).THEN HE SAID "OK, IT IS TIME".I WAS SCARED TO DEATH BUT IT WAS TOO LATE TO BACK OUT NOW.PLUS IT WAS A DARE. I could KEEP MY FEEINGS UNDER CONTROL NO MATTER WHAT because Im stubborn and strong and Im not going to let anyone win a dare.
THEN HE KISSED ME. I MELTED INTO HIS ARMS .I COULDNT
CONTROL WHAT WAS HAPPENING TO MY BODY, I FELT LIMP,
AND I NEVER WANTED THAT MOMENT TO END THAT WAS IT, THE KISS THAT TOOK ME TO PLACES I HAVE NEVER SEEN BEFORE, THE MOON, THE STARS, EVERY GALAXY IN THIS UNIVERSE AND BEYOND.I FELT LIKE I COULD NOT BREATH AND THAT MY BODY WAS JUST GOING TO MELT BENEATH HIM ALONG WITH THE GRASS, AND THEN I KNEW THAT I WAS DONE FOR.
MY FEELINGS AND HEART WAS RACING UNCONTROLABLY. I TRIED SO HARD TO HIDE MY EMOTIONS,
PUT A WALL UP AGAINST THOSE FEELINGS, BUT I WAS DONE FOR.
I COULDNT HELP THAT I FELT SO HAPPY.
SOME DEFENCE MY BRAIN GAVE ME, THAT I COULD NOT STOP OR CONTROL MY FEELINGS
THAT One KISS WAS SOMETHING THAT MADE ME so crazy which made RETHINK MY DEFENCES, I COULDN'T UNDERSTAND IT. IT WAS JUST A DARE.BUT TO LATE NOW,
I FELL IN LOVE AND SO DID Mikey.